The view from here

Posted May 24th, 2007 under Journey towards wholeness, Life by MicheleP.

We’ve lived in our home for almost 2 years now and still have some lingering house projects – namely getting window coverings on our windows that actually work. I’ve been “working on” the front windows for several months now. “Working” defined as thinking about, browsing, shopping, etc… but clearly having nothing to show for all of my efforts thus far.

A few weeks ago I was at my wit’s end with not being able to open my front blinds and declared that I was going out and would be coming home with new blinds, curtains or something that I could open and close for my windows. I hit all the major stores and no one had anything in stock that was the right size and it was looking like I was headed for the dreaded C-word: Custom Order.

Custom means we would get the exact same thing as ready-made but because we needed it 4 inches longer, would pay 2 or 3 times as much. So. Very. Frustrating. But, before I headed home in defeat, I stopped at one last place and they actually had the right size in stock. There were only 3 colors to choose from – brown, green and gold. Kind of odd if you ask me – no white or off-white or taupe, but we had just painted our dining room a nice gold color and I thought the gold ones would actually work so I bought them home and showed them to Scott.

“They are either going to look really good…or really bad,” he said. Yeah, he was right – there was no in between with these shades. We held them up, stepped back and both declared that they worked! Yay! After almost 2 years of broken blinds, I was so ready for something new!

The next day, Scott was so very gracious and even took the morning to install the new shades. I was thrilled with how well they looked in my dining room and very proud of finding them off the shelf to avoid the dreaded Custom order. As he was installing them, I had to take the girls somewhere so I loaded them up in the car and began to back out of the driveway. As I looked up at the front window… I saw the most horrible sight…my front windows…beaming with BRIGHT. GOLD. SHADES.

Truth be told, it honestly never occured to me that you could see these from the outside. Yes, I am very well aware that glass is transparent (the blond doesn’t go all the way to the roots) but I was so focused on how it looked on the inside that I never even stopped for a minute to think about what they would look like on the outside. I ran inside just as Scott was installing the 3rd…and final…shade and told him that they wouldn’t work at all – as they looked hideous from the outside.

(Side note: my sweet husband only smiled and said…”so you don’t want me to put up this third one, do you?” Such a keeper, I tell ya).

As I drove off with the girls, thinking about those shades and how awful they looked from the outside, I had one of those times where you have a moment…. Oprah calls them “A-HA” moments. They are my “God moments”.  

You see, I know my heart is no different than those shades. Whatever is on the inside – will eventually show on the outside. When I hold resentment, anger, bitterness in my heart… you know – all those things that I tend to be so skilled at hanging onto – it will be displayed for all to see in my actions and relationships with others. How I treat others is a direct reflection of the color…the condition… of my heart. As with the windows on my home, my heart is just as transparent to the outside world as well.

Whoo boy. Nothining like a good swift kick in the pants first thing in the morning, eh?

Oh – and by the way, the ‘Custom’ shades have been ordered and will arrive in another 2-3 weeks. And they are white. On BOTH sides.



  • 1

    Oh that’s a good one Michele… didn’t expect that story to go in that direction. God is so full of surprises – ehh?

    Comment by jennyonthespot — May 25, 2007 @ 10:56 am

  • 2

    You are SO funny!! I love the gold shades. And thats a great lesson too :)

    Comment by Sarah Williams — May 25, 2007 @ 9:48 pm

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