The honest truth – how am I REALLY doing?

Posted November 22nd, 2007 under Journey towards wholeness, Life, Puerto Rico by MicheleP.

As I sit here on Thanksgiving morning and think about our big lack of plans for the day, it’s tempting to try to get melancholy about where I’m at…

I struggle to feel “at home” here. I struggle because it’s a foreign place to me. I don’t fit in, haven’t made any friends, don’t have a church, and can’t communicate with any of my neighbors, well, that’s if I HAD any neighbors to actually communicate with.

So where does that leave me this Thanksgiving?

Sitting in a safe and (mostly) comfortable condo…80 degrees outside with a nice breeze coming off the ocean…drinking some excellent local coffee with Pumpkin Spice love (which, btw, is almost as good as the pumpkin spice latte at Starbucks)…my husband working on some plans for our new home, my girls happily watching some kids show in Spanish and saying “Mama! They’re talking Spanish. I can talk Spanish too…uno, dos, tres”…

And you know, it’s actually hard to be melancholy. I don’t mean I haven’t had my moments -because I have. I’ve cried, I’ve been scared, I’ve cried, I’ve been disappointed, I’ve cried, I’ve worried and wondered what on earth we have done and I’ve cried some more.

But the reality is that amidst all of the fear, frustrations and tears, I have peace – because it’s hard to have anything but peace when you are smack dab in the middle of God’s will for your life. No matter how difficult any one thing might be and how many times I may cry over the ants, mosquitoes, power outages, ridiculous traffic, language barriers, ETC. – I wouldn’t trade the peace I have for any of those things.

And THAT’s the honest truth.

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  • 1

    Hey you,
    I’m just sitting here…missing you. Funny how 6 hours feels like we are practically neighbors, but you put the ocean between us and I feel like we are worlds apart. Anyway, I just wanted to pop in an tell you that I am proud of you. You are doing an awesome job of being that Proverbs 31 kind of gal. Oh, shut up and take the compliment already, it’s TRUE! Scooter is one lucky Inca. Congratulations for seeing the good in this. Because there is GOOD in this. Being in God’s will is the very best place to be. The tears are a good base for the joy. It helps you appreciate things so much differently. Way to go girl! Way to praise God in the valleys! He will bless you for it!!

    Anyway, I just wanted you to know…

    Praying for you daily and missing you that much too~
    Beck

    Comment by Becky — November 24, 2007 @ 12:38 am

  • 2

    Hey,

    I miss you too!! I especially miss you when I just want someone to call to meet at the coffee shop at 3:00 – there is no one else that I know of that does those spur of the moment afternoon get togethers, girl. We just went there by ourselves today!

    You have definitely been through a lot since with this move. I just see God removing all the “stuff” that gets in the way of us seeing his true eternal purpose here. It seems like maybe that is happening for you. Not fun – but good. I hope I’m close to the truth – just wanted you to know too. He knows those whose hearts are turned toward Him (2 Chr. 16:9).

    Joyce

    Joyce

    Comment by Joyce — November 26, 2007 @ 7:38 pm

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